isang paglilinaw...
oo malaki ang galit ko sa mundo at tama si nea,maxado na akong matanda para sa ganoong uri ng sentimyento...

ika-26 ng mayo nang likhain ko ang mensaheng ito..."haay...mahal ko na mga *** pipol...walang kaarte arte, ok kasama at hind borbor...buti na lang may mga ganun..."

siguro nga hindi ko maxado inisip ang magiging implikasyon ng maikling mensaheng iyon na pinakalat ko sa pamamagitan ng txt msg... wala sa aking intensyon ang siraan at maliitin ang ibang tao lalo na ang mga taga ***. ang totoo, sa pamamagitan sana ng mensaheng iyon, ninais kong itama ang aking pagkakamali...totoo din naman na madalas akong manghamak at mang uyam ng mga taong,sabihin na natin na hindi kapareho ng eskwelahang aking pinapasukan, at hindi lang yun, pati ang mga taong sa tingin ko ay kaya ko..."kaya" o cge sabihin na natin na mas "may alam ako"...tanggap ko ang kayabangan na iyon...at dahil dun, humihingi ako ng paumanhin..

"lahat tayo may kanya-kanyang pelikula sa ating utak na tayo ang bida."
--peque gallaga, pinoy blonde

cguro maxado lang talaga ang pagpapahalaga ko sa bida sa aking likhang pelikula na patuloy na namamahay sa aking isipan. marahil ito rin ang dahilan kaya't nalilimutan ko nang may iba pang tauhan. mga tauhan na kapag nawala ng tuluyan ay maaaring magdulot ng paghinto ng aking pelikula...ng aking likhang pelikula...

mabalik tayo sa mensaheng aking ipinadala ng sa pamamagitan ng txt msg...kasalukuyan akong nagttraining sa isang kolsenter... isang lugar na lantaran kong iniiwasan...alam yan ng aking mga kaibigan...aaminin ko, lumaki ang ulo ko lalo na noong nakapagtapos na ako ng kolehiyo at talagang isinumpa kong hindi ako tutungtong sa kolsenter upang magtrabaho...sa aking palagay, hindi angkop ang ganitong trabaho sa isang taong nakapagtapos ng apat na taon sa kolehiyo...naranasan ko na ang magtrabaho sa kolsenter, totoo malaki ang kita, ngunit hindi ito sapat upang punan ang kapagalan ng katawan at isipang dulot ng pakikipag usap sa mga nagdudunong dunungang kustomer...dito ko nakilala ang mga taong lalo kong hinangaan...pinatunayan nilang mali ang aking akala sa mga katuld nila...noong una, akala ko pareho kami ng taong ito, ito naman ay dahil sa pareho kaming pinag aaral ng mga tao sa pamamagitan ng kanilang buwis...sa aspetong ito, marahil pareho nga kami, pero may nakita ako sa kanila na naisip ko sana meron din ako...ang kababaan ng kanilang loob...sana mabahaginan nila ako nun....

saludo ako sa mga taong nagagawang magtagal sa mga kolsenter...at kasama nito, ay ang aking panghihinayang lalo na kapag naririnig ko ang mga kwento nila tulad ng kanilang mga natapos na kurso sa kolehiyo...hindi ba't nakakapanlumong madinig na ang mga taong may digri sa marketing, nursing at engineering ay pinagsisiksikan ang kanilang mga sarili sa mga putang inang kolsenter? at pare pareho lang ang dahilan nila kung bakit kolsenter ang pinipili nilang hanapbuhay...dahil hindi sapat ang kinikita/kikitain nila kung sakaling papraktisin nila ang kanilang tinapos...nakakarelate ako...kayat lalo nang lumaki ang galit ko sa mundo...idagdag pa natin ang umuusbong na mga "pseudo elite" at "pseudo-intellectuals" sa isang kapaligirang tulad ng isang kolsenter...hindi ang kabihasahan sa paggamit ng isang wikang hiram ang sukatan ng kakayahan...oo nakakbilib naman talaga na maging bihasa sa isang bagay na hindi likas sa isang kultura... dito ako bilib sa mga Pilipino, madaling makibagay, sana hindi naman madaling makalimot...

...itutuloy...

My Personal Feedback
(maniwala kayo o hindi, pero 'yan yung sabi dun sa isang test na kinuha ko para sa isang kumpanya)

Your personal feedback, as follows, provides an overview of your personality characteristics and interests:

Jerick, please keep in mind that the following report on you as a total person is based on all the information taken from your careerXact assessment. This report is intended to help you understand more about yourself and your career options. Although based on objective, detailed assessments, no single report can sum up your full, distinctive character. The goal here is to provide you with valuable and unique insight into yourself and the careers that best suit your motivations, interests, and personality traits.Starting with motivations, your assessment scores show that you are well inclined to work with people and things, but what you like best of all is working with data. The kind of tasks that will appeal to you the most will involve data analysis, symbols, information management __ anything that provides information in some measurable way. Your powerful enthusiasm for data, combined with your above-average interest in people and tools, means that you are likely to do well in any information technology. Hands-on use of the Internet, communications, detailed paperwork, and computer-generated reports would all draw on your combined interests. Summing up your overall mindset, you have great potential for social or academic activities and you are positively motivated to use physical tools, manual equipment, and machinery. This is a winning mix for a wide range of opportunities.

Regarding your personality and how that fits with the opportunities you might consider, you probably already know that you are reasonably obliging yet you do not hold back from competition, but that is just the beginning. Jerick, your scores show that you are equally ready to be either a team member or a team leader __ as long as you still get individual recognition. Although you are adaptable and willing to play whatever "role gets the goal," you function better if your personal contribution is recognized. This doesn't mean that you will thrust yourself into the limelight at the expense of others. In fact, you prefer to avoid conflict and aggression. This shows in your leadership style, too. If you are called upon to resolve a dispute, you will rely more on persuasion than force. You can be outspoken and will promote your own ideas, but you prefer to encourage rather than compel.

So how do you deal with both the sudden impact of a crisis and the humdrum of daily routine? Your personality traits are right on target for the fast pace of contemporary work: your assessment results show that you are both innovative and sufficiently organized. You react well to unexpected demands and you are happy to find new ways to solve problems, yet you can also follow a set routine. You can work within established guidelines as long as they permit some interpretation. That is, you might be able to work with military precision but you still need a little artistic licence. Your workspace, for example, may appear somewhat cluttered and disordered but you know where everything is. You have to have some leeway to think for yourself. If the rules and regulations don't let you react in your own way, you would have to gut it out to keep up to your usual level of accomplishment.

This on-your-toes attitude also shows in your approach to planning. You likely have an overall strategy for dealing with problems but you prefer to fill in the details as situations develop. There is a streak of daring in your approach to work so that doing a job "on the fly" is no problem for you. In the main, you are more concerned with getting the job done than how you do it. The gist of the careerXact appraisal of your character is that you are flexible and orderly. You can make plans and work in a controlled manner, but you are not upset if you have to abandon those plans to cope with unexpected events. You are stimulated by new developments and a changing work environment.

You know how you react to most workplace issues, but what is the best environment for you to do your best work? You don't need to work with others face-to-face all the time and you can cope with some isolation, but you will achieve your highest productivity with a small group in a lively setting. Because you are friendly and outgoing, Jerick, you could also commit to a large group in a noisy, chaotic environment but not for a prolonged period. Being companionable, you will contribute readily to conversation and informal discussion, but you still need time alone to reflect on your efforts and plan your work.

In general, you are open to new acquaintances and fresh views, but you examine both new people and new ideas carefully before accepting them. In a group situation, you will participate well because you have the ability to present your ideas with enthusiasm, while at the same time listening for feedback and casual debate. However, you will not hog the spotlight because you are not driven to be the center of everyone's attention. You tend to be self-reliant and, while you require change and new input, you are able to tolerate some monotony. Consequently, ideal work for you should require frequent interaction with small groups, the support of established procedures as well as development of new protocols, and variable contact with newcomers. Extended periods of isolation or total immersion in-group projects would be equally frustrating for you. Long-term assignments must include challenge and opportunity for growth.

Finally, work often creates stress and how you deal with stress is crucial not only for job achievement but also for job satisfaction. The best job in the world is no good to you if it makes you sick with anxiety. You will be glad to know that your personality profile reveals that Jerick Medrano customarily copes well with pressure and, while you can be pressed into "losing your cool," you regain your composure remarkably well. You tend to avoid stress and this is a good thing because high pressure for a long period will disturb you. If you must manage a heavy workload in tiresome conditions with unreasonable deadlines, you are not likely to break down but you will need to exert yourself to maintain your focus. When truly stressed, you may not want to trust others and you could find yourself becoming more sensitive to criticism. Because of these attitudes, you may be less objective and rational if involved in a personal dispute. On the whole, however, you will always give your best effort no matter what the circumstances. -->

joke,joke,joke

isang malaking joke ang teleperformance...mrahil ay bitter lang talaga ko kaya ko nasabi/nasulat ito...
gumising ako ng napakaaga para lang kumuha ng eksamin sa teleperformance, ikawalo ng umaga sa edsa central. i took the exam at around 9am. hindi ito maganda lalo na at mayayabang pang mga aplikante ang katabi mong naghihintay.inglesan ng inglesan sa paraang hindi ko masikmura...ewan ko siguro nga ako na ang may problema kasi tama lang naman na mag iningles ang mga tao dahil un ang tama, at least sa lugar na kinalalagyan ko ng mga oras na iyon.

mabalik tayo sa exam. ok lang ung 2 naunang part pero yung 3 exam na sumunod tungkol sa planning, dun ako medyo nahilo. buti na lang kahit paano napasa ko...yehey...yehey na nga ba?

muli kaming tinawag para sa isa pang pagsusulit. aaminin ko, hindi ko inasahan ang sunod na pagsusulit..putang ina! tungkol sa Excel lang naman...oo ms excel at alam ko lang ng mga oras na iyon na eto na ang katapusan ng aking karera..ay iyon nga...bagsak daw sabi nung isang tauhan nila... sobrang nakakababa lang ng self esteem...natanong ko tuloy ang sarili ko, ganun ba ako katanga para hindi ipasa ang exam tungkol sa ms excel.. tang ina spss na lang dapat....ang punto ko naman e madali nang pag aralan at gamitin ang excel kapag kaharap ko na ang pc...ano gusto nila? imemorize ko ung mga toolbar dun? naman...

"How To Save A Life"

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life